Reading by the author
It’s January (again) and I’m dreaming (again) about owls. A grizzly local man 
claiming to be an expert doubts my love for these birds and threatens me
with his gun. Twenty-three kindergartners go /nnn/ when I hold up
Nigel Nightowl. They touch thumbs to index fingers to create tiny circles,
curl the rest of their fingers into feathers, hold these handmade owl eyes
up to their own. Letter name, I prompt. I would’ve thought O for owl but then
I didn’t invent Zoophonics, and anyway that would deprive me of forty-six tiny arms
wiggling Olive Octopus. I run from the rifle-wielding birder, turning at corners,
trying to lose him. When I stop to catch my breath I look up and see (of course)
an owl, perched on somebody’s porch. No matter that it’s broad daylight.
The dream doesn’t notice. It’s a beautiful bird, brown and spotted, big as a
kindergartner, tilting its head toward me. I don’t know how I could ever love it enough
so I keep running—right into another dream. Or is it the same one? I’m at work now
and another man is holding a gun
and I don’t know how he feels about birds.
I lock the door and cover the window
and huddle twenty-three kindergartners
under two tables in the back of the classroom,
reminding them to keep their squirming
bodies still, their voices level zero. But then a boy,
whose middle name is Owl,
pushes another boy,
whose middle name I don’t recall,
and he shouts
and the table shakes
and something goes crack
and something goes hoot, hoot
and something goes beep beep beep
and I recognize it as my alarm clock.
The dream-children untangle and scatter. Nocturnal birds call it a night. But the men
and their weapons wake with me (again) and follow me (again) (of course) to work.

Sara Iacovelli is a poet and a preschool teacher. She has gone to grad school too many times, though never for writing; she holds degrees in comparative literature and special education. She lives in the northern Catskills with her partner, a very large dog, and a very soft cat. Her work has appeared in Prairie Home Magazine, Barren Magazine, Monkeybicycle, and Eunoia Review.

Image: “Hunting Morning Detail” from The Dollar Store Estate Sale Collection

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